No MOJO ?

Mantra:  This is tough. I 'm tougher


I have been training for the half on my treadmill because the inversion has been pretty bad.  The temp has been ok, with enough layers I have been just fine, but bad air is so not good for the lungs.  The day had finally come where the inversion was gone.  I  was so excited to pound the pavement.  After weeks on the treadmill,  I really struggled.  I forgot how treadmill running is so much easier than being outdoors.  Decided to run at a 4 or 6 % incline on the treadmill to maybe, I don't know, help compensate for not being outdoors.  HOLY COW!!!!  I feel like I am just starting my training from the very beginning.  I am huffing and puffing and not even as well as The Little Engine Who Could .  I did complete the 60 minutes that I told myself I would. I was slower than I hoped to be, but I am already looking forward to tomorrows run.  I want to do better.  I will try harder.  I want this!  THIS being the satisfaction of running a half marathon.  THIS also being proud of myself, for working hard for something I want to achieve.  I can do this!  Tomorrow I will have good running MOJO!